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Thursday, May 31, 2012

Delightful Bites Bakery...

What a day! Work has been pretty low key today considering I am the only one in my department and my computer was attacked by a trojan! Ugh...pretty stressful but still not the worst day I have had. I could have killed someone yesterday. I killed a decent amount of my time today getting Linsey's baby shower decorations together. I have the flowers ordered, the balloons ordered, the cupcakes ordered, invitations sent, and the monogrammed pails are in process as we speak. I still have to finish up painting the birdhouse and get the banner but I am seeing the end of the tunnel. My vision is coming to light. I have started rearranging my furniture and adding the vases for my 20 stems of Hydrangea's and my 3 dozen pink Roses spread around the house. I even put the satin table cloths down and have hung the chinese lanterns around the room. Pink is everywhere and I L.O.V.E. it! I also have the Anderson's shower finalized for Sunday!! WAHOO! So, as I was sitting the basking in my pure party planning awesomeness this MASSIVE box comes in my office. I was not expecting a massive box so I tore in to that thing like it was Christmas. I opened it up and it was completely full of goodies from one of my companies that I just signed on with! I wish that company knew I was finished with such goodies. Temptation was only there slightly as I handed out the cookies to everyone that would take them. Satisfaction came over me...one small victory today! WAHOO! So I get back to work and remembered today is one of my co-workers birthday's and we always to fabulous cupcakes from Neopolitian or Delightful Bites bakery. I quickly put it in my head that it is just a cupcake and I don't need it. I then got a call from my boss that said it was my day to get the cupcakes...KILL ME... so after lunch I trotted over to my favorite cupcake place and the smell overtook me! All of these cupcake flavors and I was supposed to pick a dozen. Torture. I picked the chocolatiest and most delightful cupcakes I could find...why because I torture myself. I then drived back, my car smelling like delicious cupcakes, and I drop them off and forget about them...for an hour. We then had to congregate and I not only had to hand each person the cupcake of their choice, but as tradition would have it, I had to sit there and spend adequate birthday time watching them eat their cupcakes. I DID NOT HAVE EVEN ONE BITE and you know what... I was ok. The temptation was there a little saying "just one bite" but I didn't! So I would say so far BIG HUGE SUCCESSES FOR ME TODAY! I am so proud.

Wednesday, May 30, 2012

How quickly things click...this time

So it is day 10 and I have may days to go, but I am LOVING this new lifestyle. I have gone 10 whole days...no cheating! Also, no desire to cheat....which is strange for me. I have heard time and time again that one day someone started a new eating lifestyle and it just "clicked." Well for the first time I can actually say this time I am that person. I am also loving the punishment that is called Bootcamp. I went three times last week and did homework excercises two times. I went today and it was hot, tiring, and satisfying! So glad I made it through. I am planning on going tomorrow for Cardio Bootcamp and Friday morning for strength. We weigh in on Saturday and I am looking or should I say hoping for a good loss this week. I have read a little of "wheat belly" and it has been interesting. I still have a ways to go in that book too but one page at a time. :)

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Devistation and Determination

So today was the day...the weigh in! I have been working really hard to watch my eating and I can honestly say I feel a lot better this week than I have in a while. My body woke me up at 6am today... I was surprised too! I told myself to get a little more shut eye. Around 7, I woke up and just sat alone for a while and it was pretty wonderful. I was eager, thinking about that scale, fantasizing about how much weight I have lost. I went and got my first Bountiful Basket today and MAN I am so happy we chose to do that. Supporting our local farmers and getting way more bang for our buck at the same time. I was pleased. Then I headed over to the meeting. Still excited and nervous I walked in and waited in line. The line seemed to be long, but short at the same time. As I got closer my heart started beating faster. This is the FIRST time in my life that I did not obsess over the scale. It was my turn, I got on the scale, looked down and was shocked. Not in a good way. I only lost 1lb. 1lb.  I knew my eyes starting welling up, but i kept telling myself DO NOT CRY! This is silly. You lost weight that is wonderful. However, my whole body just felt defeated. I did not cheat ONE TIME. I ate as clean as they come...how is it only 1lb? Usually this is the time when I would go into a self destruction mode and wallow in my self pity and food.That is a big part of my problem... I am insanely competitive and a prefectionist and if I feel that I did not do the best that I can, I failed. There it is. I felt like I failed. I felt liek a failure. It felt good talking to Bethany afterwards where she made me realize that 1lb is still a loss and I did that in 6 days. I cannot focus on what others do. This is about me and changing my life. So I can honestly say.... I am ok with the 1lb...actually I am excited. I feel better than I ever have before in my life and that is worth it. I am worth it.

Friday, May 25, 2012

It's Friday...

It is finally Friday! What a stressful week. I am proud to say, however, that I have not cheated ONCE with my clean eating!!! I am super excited because this is the first time I can truly say that. I have also worked out so far every day!
Monday: Bootcamp assessment
Tuesday: walk 2 miles (hills: neighborhood=death)
Wednesday: Bootcamp
Thursday: Cardio Bootcamp

I am planning on going to the 6pm bootcamp tonight since I will not be going to bootcamp in the morning. I have signed up for bounteful baskets and the pick up is the same time as bootcamp. Also, I weigh in at 9am tomorrow so I don't want to be puffy! I am a little anxious about the weigh in because I have not even looked at the scale. I am not sure what is realistic. I am hoping for 2lbs but we shall see. Also, Tim and I are doing our weekly cooking together tonight so we are looking for some clean eating options that are also DELICIOUS! I will let you know what we choose. My food this week has been as follows:

Monday: 2 hardboiled eggs, 1/2c steel cut oats, raspberries & green tea (breakfast), celery and carrots 1 tbsp natural peanut butter (snack am),  salad (romaine, carrots, celery, tomato & olives) with tuna ( 1tsp light greek yogurt, 1tsp dill relish, and a lot of mustard) (lunch), Apple & Greek Yogurt (snack-pm) , herb crusted porkloin, roasted broccoli with olive oil and garlic, side salad (romaine, carrots, celery, olives, and baby tomatoes) (Dinner)

Tuesday: 2 hard boiled egg whites, 1/2c oatmeal (breakfast), Celery carrots and natural pb (snack am)5oz chicken, 1tsp EVOO, 1/4c quinoa, 1 c broccoli (lunch) grapes, vanilla greek yogurt (pm snack), Red beans and sausage (1/2c kidney beans, 2oz turk sausage) 1c cabbage with red pepper flakes and onion, side salad (romaine, tomatoes, peppers and katamala olives) (dinner)

Wednesday: 2 eggs scrambled with veggies (peppers onions garlic mushrooms tomato) 1/4 c steel cut oats with berries (breakfast),  2 hard boiled egg whites celery and carrots (am snack), 5oz grilled chicken in 1 tsp evoo, 1/4c quinoa, 1c cabbage (lunch) greek vanilla yogurt & apple (pm snack) Romaine topped with black beans, peppers, onions, avocado, tomato, jalapeno, 3oz chicken breast (dinner)

Thursday: 1 slice Ezekiel bread, 1tbsp natural pb, raspberries, coffee with splash of half and half (breakfast), 1/2 sweet potato & 2 hardboiled egg whites (am snack), 1.2c blackbeans, 4oz chicken, tomatoes, olives, onions and 1/2 avocado topped with siracha (lunch), vanilla greek yogurt & peach (pm snack) stuffed chicken (spinach, garlic, katamala olives, pinch of cheese) topped with mushrooms, 1c spinach topped with siracha, and baby tomatoes

Friday: Breakfast: 1/2c oats with blueberries, raspberries, and almonds and a carrot (breakfast), celery, carrots, 2 hard boiled egg whites (am snack)

This has been my week so far and I am pretty proud of it. Like I said though pretty anxious about tomorrow. I have been stalking the page to see what everyone else is eating because it is like watching your competition. I feel more awake and like I have more energy but I will have a long way to go. Oh and I overcame temptation hard yesterday, my body wanted crap and I said no, and when Tim got McDonalds I went upstairs so I would not even get tempted! Go me!! Here is to the first 5 days though! I can do it.  I will let you know when I weigh in tomorrow! :)

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Back in the swing of things...

I cannot believe how long ago my last blog post was. I have been struggling for over a year now with this "fitness journey." I have had so many ups and downs, mainly downs, but I am back and really mentally focused. It seems that I have been struggling so much with the mental and emotional aspect. I let thoughts like "you are not worth this" or "you cannot do this" get to me and they win. Well, not anymore, I am taking charge. I have joined another "Biggest Loser" program, this time with the intentions of not quitting and making a life style change. The biggest change will be eating. This program focuses on eating and this is what I need. It is sponsered by Bethany's Bikini Bootcamp and it is a 12 week program focused on Clean Eating. We had our first meeting on Saturday where we measured in, weighed, got our "before" pictures taken and talked about the program. We had to start reading Tosca Reno's book "The Eat Clean Diet" and I have enjoyed it. I weighed in at 165.8 and I am unsure of my measurements. I will weight in again on Saturday and I am not wanting to weigh in until then. I want to be focused with no pitfalls. I told myself... you can do this...start off this week and make it happen. I have incorporated foods in my diet that I used to hate... i.e boiled eggs and I have also incorporated new things like steal cut oats, quionoa, etc. I am on day two of the eating and I am loving it! I feel energized and in control. I am not hungry either...just focused. I also started back with Bethany's Bikini Bootcamp. It will be a 6 week program and I had my first evaluation yesterday. We were evaluated on 3 things: pushups, plank, and mile:

Pushups (in 60 seconds): 35
Plank: 41 secs
Mile: 11:10

I definetly have areas to improve but I am doing pretty good thus far. I have really enjoyed Bethany's support as well. I feel like a child when I post my food for the day and she "likes" it on facebook. That has REALLY been something good for me. I enjoy the posting because I can see where I am and I can be held accountable. POST POST POST all food. That is my goal...to not be ashamed of what I eat and be satisfied. For once. Tim is also being pretty supportive. He has always encouraged me in my weight loss and I think the emotional toll it takes on me also stresses him out. I want to feel sexy and worth it. I want to be proud of my fitness and eating routines. I will get there. I will be ready and I will be wearing a bikini on our Anniversary. So, for the next 12 weeks I will be posting anywhere and everywhere. Hopefully this will help with my food allergies. I have been itching on my elbows for over a month now (right before I got my wisdom teeth out) and I am hoping that I can get over that as well. Also, it will be a way to find better things to eat for my stomach and let others in on the not so secret "NO FAD DIETS" and just clean eating.