Tuesday, July 10, 2012
Today I am feeling empowered! I am feeling ready to get back in the swing of things and I am really excited to go back to fitcamp tonight. I feel like exercise will really help me get out of the mode I am in right now. Glad that the Lord offers healing and endurance and that I can move past this. I have not struggled with over eating, perhaps more undereating, but I am ready to get back on track. I have been spending a lot of time outside with my husband and the youth boys at church. It always reminds me that I love being outside and active. I will say in all honesty though, I am a little nervous about heading back to bootcamp tonight. I am not sure why but I am. I am glad though that I have great encouragement and it reminds me why I am doing this in the first place. I want to feel better and be happier. I want to love myself and my body. Most of all I want to glorify God not only with my mind and heart, but with my body as well. I will get up and shake this off and move forward. " Brothers, I do not consider that I have made it my own. But one thing I do: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:13-14 ESV. It has really stuck in my mind, what endurance really is, "to strain forward." It takes effort, tears, let downs, victories, bumps and bruises, joy and heartache. Is the goal really worth straining towards? Yes it is. All things worth fighting for are worth all the joys and pain that come with it. Rather than wollow in self pity I will cling to the cross and learn to love the person God has made me. I will be an effective tool not only spiritually but physically. Bethany's bikini fitcamp has been a valuable tool in my relationship with myself, my family and the Lord. I am forever greatful that I have been given this opportunity and time of healing.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Man! This week has been insanely hard. I have not been binge eating which is a huge successs with everything that is going and how stressful life has been. I haven't been able to workout like I would like but it will be ok. I want to get back into my daily workout schedules this weekend since I probably need to rest this week. Two weeks in a row I have had to take it easy and I am annoyed with that. I do not have much to say as my focus has been on what is going on in my life over the program. I know it is not good but sometimes life gets in the way of what is best for you. I was able to take some time and rest yesterday at Lake Murray with Mamma Marie and Kevin. The food options were horrible but I really did my best. I did, however, allow myself a slice of cookie dough pie. It was good! I am glad to be back though and I am so ready for Tim to get home. This week has been so hard without him but I know he is doing wonderful things at student life camp. I love that he has such a passion for teaching and loving Jesus. What a wonderful man. I have only been at work since 12 but it sure has been the longest day of my life. Ready to get back into the swing of things.